WOW, what a doozy!

Well this week has been a real treat, (hear the sarcasm yet??),  My treatment has really laid me up this week.I have experienced so much nausea that I came so close to puke. So much that I can't eat anything for fear of seeing my puke!  So much neuropathy in my hands, that I can hardly hold my water or rub Ty's back, so much in my feet and legs that I can't sit or lay still to relax or sleep.
Just the overwhelming feeling of not feeling good and life still has to go on.
I mean, I have so many that depend on me and I need to do things.  I mean I should say, I WANT TO DO THESE THINGS.  I don't want this cancer to take away the joys I have.

So I pressured through my girl scout troops halloween party on Thursday.  It was so much FUN!  These girls are the best.  They always give me a smile.  And as I promised, here is my princess costume....

So I look kinda normal.

Then on Friday, I pressured through taking the kids to their youth group bonfire.  No I didn't stay, but I had to pick them up to.  Erin's friend stayed the night at our house that night. And really after Igot home from picking them up from the bonfire, I don't remember much, I went to bed on phenergan, hoping I can get to sleep and not throw up.

Hey God, when I started this, I thought I asked to keep the nausea down some. Well HE did answer one request, no vomiting. (at least not yet).  So I know he does listen to me and answer my prayers.

So today has been a lay around the house on the couch, watching tv/movies day.  I did venture out with Erin to Penny's because she "needed" a new pair of shoes.  And while I am on my little shoe outing today, it seems that I am a magnet for people who want to take donations for breast cancer.  REALLY, do they not think that I already have given to the cause?? (just by the way I look??)  I guess not, because when I say no thank you, I already gave, they look at me like I am lying.  Whatever, they will never know what I am going through, and I don't have enough strength to take this battle.  AND our Susan G. Komen walk is next Saturday OCT 13th. I hope everyone can come.

I am starting to eat and hold it down, WHOO HOO!!  These big chemo weeks are getting worse and worse.  Thank goodness I only have 2 more.  DID YOU HEAR ME??? 2 MORE BIG ONES!!

So my strength comes from the LORD (and knowing I am going to be on the beach soon to relax!). 

So as I leave you today, 2 Samuel 22:2, "The lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer."  I know this trial will soon be over and another chapter in my life will begin.

Love to all,