I'll take what I can get

Sometimes you just don't get to do everything you would like to.  I push myself and push harder because I just don't know what it means to take it easy.  I have done it again.  After my surgery, I thought I would just bounce back, quick. But that is not what is happening. I have tried not to take a lot of pain medications and tried not to be down to long.  I stayed in bed that first and second day, but by Saturday, I was getting restless.  I should have known better, because I am paying for it today and of all days.  I did go to mom's to be with our family for the celebration of Easter but I was only able to stay a little while and had to come home.   I know it sounds like I'm feeling sorry for myself, and maybe I am.  I am praying this is the last surgery that I will have to have that is related to my cancer.  I am hoping this will put most of my worries to rest and I can move on.  I thought I had moved on when I got the all clear 2 years ago but you never really do.  There is reminders that come up in everyday life that tell you to never forget.
But the one thing that gets me through it all is knowing that Jesus has taken all my burdens. When I start to feel this way and feel the heavy burden of what is going on in my mind, I just give it up.  People ask me how I can stay positive through all of this.  Jesus is how I do it. When I start to feel down, I just pray-have a little conversation with my God and it helps.

So even though I didn't get to spend Easter like I wanted to, I still was blessed with seeing my family and loving on them, even if it was just for a short time.

"Teach me to do you will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground." Psalm 143:10

Love to all,

Why go?

I have returned from my trip to Honduras and I was so blessed. I experienced so many new adventures and God taught me to trust him through me in the medical clinics. I was so nervous and anxious about them and how they would go, but after the first one, God proved that if I just let him have control, it would all go well.  We saw so many people and was able to introduce Christ to them and some even accepted Christ! Pastor Luis said that these medical clinics are the door to those villages that do not know about God.  I am so glad that God has chosen me to be a part of this.
I also got to taste the authentic food.  Louisa from across the street from our hostel made enchiladas and they were great. Then Olimpia (our pottery lady) made us homemade donuts and coffee which was awesome! The ladies at the women's ministry made us some really good lemongrass tea and Pastor Lorenzo and his wife in Lamenda made our whole team lunch of pollo guisado.  It is a type of chicken soup with rice.  It was amazing!  Everyone has told us to watch eating the food because we do not know how it was prepared.  But when they make you food, it is disrespectful not to partake.  They took the time to prepare it just for you and the fellowship we have shows our love to build these relationships.
I love going to Honduras and the people there.  I have heard people say there are needs in the states and why do you have to go across the world when there is so much to do here.  Well my answer is this: Some are called to stay home, minister at home and support those who go abroad and some are called to minister across the world. There are so many people not only in Honduras that have never heard the word of Christ or know about him.  There are no churches in some towns and that is why I go.  To spread the word.  If they do not hear about the love of Christ, how are they to be saved?
My question to those that question me is this: If you are not called to travel abroad, then why are you not being a missionary and ministering to those here at home?  If you believe in Christ then you are called by Him to spread his word and love.  This is my challenge to all: Love one another and share the good news!

One other thing: I had my surgery today for my ovaries and tubes to be removed and it all went well.  I will be seeing Dr. Hargis in two weeks and will be changing up my medications. So NO MORE TAMIXOFEN!!  What a relief that is for me.  So right now I am loving my percocets.

Trust and faith in God.  That is the lesson for me.  Listen to him when he talks and obey.  That is the hard part.  It takes courage.  I am learning this.  Thank goodness for his grace and forgiveness.

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. Isaiah 53:5

Love to all,