Be a light

I always strive to be a light in the darkness.  Sometimes I fail, but that is only because I am human and even though I walk with Jesus, I sometimes stumble.
But there is always some occasions that remind me that I am on the right road and my light is shining. For example, I got a message from a lady I have never met through another friend.  Me and my friend have both gone through breast cancer and I have hoped that my experience has helped her through her experience.  This friend of hers messaged me telling me that she too was diagnosed with breast cancer.  She wanted to "friend" me on face book to follow me.  She said that I was an inspiration in sharing my experience.  I don't feel like I am but I have spoken to a church women's group on my walk through this difficult time and even gave my testimony in Honduras on faith and my walk through cancer in hopes it would help others. And these women have told me the same, that my story is an inspiration to them.
I started this blog when I was first diagnosed in the hopes to get out the information about me but it has turned into helping others through this journey as well as me.  Whether you read this or not, or share it or not, It will be out there for others to see.
I pray that my new friend has found her own inspiration and not have this cancer bring her down.  If she is anything like our friend we share, then I know she is strong.

I started my new medication today.  I saw Dr. Hargis, my oncologist on Friday and I think someone may have told him to lighten up.  He came in smiling and trying to be funny.  He is a different doctor from the last 3 years.  He told me to not google my medication. Well I had to tell him I already did!  He just smiled like he already knew that.  I think he is starting to get to know me!!  So since my surgery which has forced me into menopause, I have started experiencing it all.  And it is just the start.  So if you see me red and blotchy, that doesn't mean I am stressed or mad anymore.  It is from the "change of life" I am going through.  If I break out into a sweat all of a sudden, just had me a tissue and ignore it.  I think we all can get through this!!  Because it is a good thing to me.  I do not have the worries of any ovarian or uterine cancer with this new medication.  My mind is free to obsess over new things.  Which right now is losing weight!
I thank God each day for the life he has given me.  It has had it's ups and downs and I am sure growing up I have caused a lot of it to my parents.  But it has only made me stronger and the woman I am today.  It has helped me become a good parent and raise really, great kids. A better wife, a better daughter.
It is amazing how God gives me his word when I need it and the verse for today is just that:
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."
Col 2:6-7.
Love to all,