Saturday, May 16, 2020

Many Scars

I recently saw a picture of a older lady showing her natural body and scars. It said "this is what beauty is". A lot of times, us ladies, define our beauty and self-worth by our bodies. I am far from perfect and I have a lot of scars.
Our scars are different from each other and how we react to them is different.
My scars bring me memories of good times and of some times I would like to not remember as much.
I have my C-section scar that gives me beautiful memories of my hard experiences of trying to get pregnant and of what going through all those tough times gave me, my family. It took me a lot of infertility treatments and tests over 5 years before I was able to actually get pregnant. More people saw me below the waist that I would ever want!
Scars can also bring back memories that were not so funny at the time but now everytime I see it and think about how I got it, I have to laugh. This scar is between my eyes. I got this when I was in the 5th grade playing in the corn pasture at my grandmas house. Me and my cousins were told to not play in the corn field but we never listened (like when they also told us to not play in the barn either!) and when we were running back to the house trying not to get caught, I ran into the barb-wire fence and it clothes hooked me between the eyes! Not a fun day for me.
I also have a scar to remind me of the year of treatment for cancer. I actually have 2 scars, one on my breast that reminds me of where my tumor was, and one on my chest to remind me of where my port was and the treatment I got.  This was not a good time in my life or my family, but I don't want to forget it because it showed me how strong of a woman I was and showed me no matter how strong I was, I still needed to depend on God and my family. Through all of this testing time, I have now a lopsided boob which makes it tricky when buying a bra! I have patchy hair and have to really pay attention when I am fixing my hair to cover up the bald spots and so many cow licks!
There also is the scars that we don't see. Those scars I think are the hardest. When we are mentally beat up and trying to overcome a fear or depression, this is the hardest. I have to try and not beat myself up every time I look at my hair, or my weight loss trials.  I just try to concentrate on what I have been blessed with and be content with my what I have and not concentrate on what others have or do. God made me the way I am. He made you the way you are.
We all have scars, some are more noticeable than others or may not be seen at all. And everyone manages and reacts differently to them. But we all need to realize that we do not know what others are going through or battling in their life. You know the old saying, don't judge until you have walked in their shoes.

Psalm 46:1-3
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.

Love to all,


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