Ups and Downs

There is always ups and downs when you have a health issue. I have had many ups throughout this last 6 years but some downs.  Right now is a down.  My dexa scan, bone scan, has gotten worse.  The medication that I have to take for my breast cancer, causes your bones to lose bone mass.  Well, that is what has happened. The solution is to take yet another medication to help with the bone loss.  But of course, I am always different!  I cannot take these meds because of what it can do to your jaw bone.  I have problems with my teeth and have had trouble for a long time.  So with this problem, that excludes me from taking anything like this.  The plan that was given to me....stop the letrozole and restart the tamoxifen.  Thats my only option.  Or take nothing.  The tamoxifen has a property that will help with the bone loss and repair it over time. 
I was really dreading going back to the Oncologist.  I have a good doctor, but I really don't like seeing him.  To me, it is just a reminder of what I have gone through and sometimes I just want to live in the denial that it ever happened.  But in life, that is dangerous, to live in denial.  I will let you know, that I was nice and was not argumentative with my doctor.  I have been told that I do not know everything and need to listen to him.  I feel that person is wrong who told me this because don't you think I know everything??? (haha it was my husband) but he does know me all to well!
I really wish I didn't have to take any medications. I wish I didn't have to experience breast cancer or the after math that you have to go through.  But I know there is a reason why I went through this trial.  I have learned a lot, and have learned to trust people that I really didn't want to (like doctors, haha).  But my greatest lesson I learned was faith in my God.  He has held me throughout all this and will never leave me.
All trials we go through, we can learn lessons to make us stronger.
Have faith.
Trust.
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23.

Love to all,