Love

Today, I went to the viewing of Officer Jason Ellis in support of my cousin in law Nathan and his wife (my cousin) Alison.  He was Nathan's brother in law.  Jason was killed in the line of duty as a policeman.  The turn out today was tremendous.  I can tell he was very loved.  But the reason I was there was because this really hit home to me.  All I could think about was thank you God that it wasn't Nathan.  Is this bad?  As I stood in line to pay my respects to Jason's wife, I see Alison and Nathan sitting and all I could do was go to him and hug him and tell him I love him. 
I pray for his safety as well and my brother in law Eddie.  You see Eddie has been deployed for the 4th time over seas. With all this going on, I reflect on my family and appreciate them even more and love them more and more.

God has put me in situations that have been hard over my life. I have experienced loses, love, and joy.  He has tested me through sickness and defeat.  But it has made my faith stronger.

I am almost done with all my treatments!! Only 3 more left!! Pretty soon I can put this experience as a check mark off my list of life's experiences.  I feel my life is getting back to normal somewhat. My hair is growing VERY curly. My hair on my arms and legs (boo) is growing back as well as my eyebrows!! OMG I may be turning into bigfoot! haha.

I just wonder what God has in store for me next?? I am sure it will be challenging, because He doesn't do small.

1John 4:19, "We love because he first loved us."
John 15:12, " My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you."
1John 4:10, "This is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."

love to all,