As I am getting ready to start my homework and study for my test this week, I am blogging!! Yes, I am putting it off for now. I will get to it in a few minutes. I just want to share with all my blogger friends....I have lost 10 pounds!!! I guess all that counting calories and yoga is working!! So I need to keep it up. Momma wants a new dress!! Erin, my fashion coordinator, says she will help me pick one out.
Well, as I am procrastinating this morning, I have watched a sermon online to prepare my heart for the day. Then I read a testimony from someone about prayer. He said "Sometimes it seems God knows that if we are on the inside track to the plans He has, we seem to back out or miss them altogether. So He does the most logical thing (or for me the most frustrating) and doesn’t tell us everything. Sometimes God tells us and we still don’t really get it."
I know God hasn't revealed everything to me, He knows me all to well. And I know God has given me a little of what he wants, and I don't understand at times. This is when I need to just trust and follow.
I am trying to keep a positive outlook on my recovery and I am almost done. I am in the home stretch as some would say. But the devil is attacking me from all sides. With the bills coming in, with the doubt placed in my heart about healing, with the fear that my cancer will return or isn't totally gone,with the weariness of just still being "sick" even though I am starting to heal. With still having pain which I attribute to neuropathy in my feet and my hip, reminds me everyday that I am not 100%.
But I pray and take joy that God will help through each day. I may be a little tense and grumpy these last few weeks, and I apologize to all my friends and family about that. I resolve to be better, to wake up in a positive attitude and live each day joyfully. I take joy in: the 10 pounds lost!!, in my new hair!!, in Rob who supports me and loves me!!, in Erin who is trying to find me a new dress!!, in Tyler who listens to my advice!! (or makes me think he does :)) In all my parents who support me in more ways than one.
HMM, when I look at it from that joy, I see I have a lot and the attacks don't mean a thing!!
"In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy", Philippians 1:4
Love to all,
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