Kind words

 

Never underestimate the power of a kind word. I was the recipient of just those kind words this week.  A coworker told me how they appreciate my positivity and that I was a "breath of fresh air". Another coworker said I was "a ray of sunshine". When I heard those simple, small compliments, I felt such joy in my heart. I am glad I was able to overcome my sleepiness today to be that ray of sunshine! The hubs was up most of the night coughing out a lung! Those words drove away any grumpiness I had starting today. 

You would never think that something simple would make such an impact. But yet some people only complain and say hurtful things to bring others down. I never understood why some people just enjoy hurting others. Well, I can say I have been on the other side of both, receiving hurtful words and receiving kind words. I have to say that the kind words do make a difference in how you feel. I had also been that person that complained a lot. In the past, when stressed at work, I would complain. It wasn't pretty and I am not proud of that. I complained mostly because I didn't have a lot of control of certain situations. I learned that if you do not have any positivity growing in your life, it is difficult to give to others. It just took awhile for me to realize this and make the changes I needed. 

What changes did I make? Well, I started with taking it to God in prayer. Fully trusting him to guide me in my decisions. The BIG scary decision to change positions at work was the start. That giant leap of faith and trust that God will support me and guide me, was the foundation of my new joy. I now look for joy and happiness in everything I do. I find myself loving myself more and the person I am. I no longer hate who I was becoming, but changing who I am...my mind, my spirit. I now have found a way to start liking and loving the person I am.  

So when you see someone complaining or a little grumpy, they may just need a kind word to turn it all around. You never know what someone is going through and they may not want to let anyone know, but the stress of it may be shown through anger or complaining. The "it" they may be going through may be from work, family trauma, health concerns.

 Scatter those compliments like confetti. Just the small things that are noticed make a big difference. Not only will you build up others, but you will also be on the receiving end of lifting up someone. And nothing feels better than being a part of helping others. 

Ephesians 4:32 instructs, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you." 

Romans 12:10: "Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor." 

Love to all, 

Things we do

 

I'm going to tell you all something you may not want to hear. But it is a hard realization. WE are all turning into our parents! I know I have talked about this before, but it is TRUE! You know, it's funny, you see it more as you get older. You may not want to acknowledge it, but the sooner you do, the more you can accept your fate!

I have noticed that I relate to things that my parents have said to me or done. The saying is true, Just wait until you get older, or, just wait til you have kids. And the really hard part is knowing that your parents were right! But I will never tell them that!

I find it hilarious to watch my parents have conversations and argue over small stuff. It reminds me of when I would watch my grandparents talk. It was funny then too. For example, dad would ask mom if she salted the food at dinner. She would say yes. He would say, well doesn't taste like it. And she would say, well you watched me do it. Then he would say it wasn't enough. Just small funny everyday conversations, don't take for granted. There is so much comedy in everyday life, you just have to pay attention. And this becomes an awesome memory that will bring a smile to your face, like this does for me.

All joking aside, I have learned a lot from my parents and am a better person for their training me into an adult. Don't get me wrong, I have made many mistakes, and have taken the consequences for them. My parents did not spare the discipline! I was grounded a lot and had to face their disappointment too (which was the hardest). But I am loved unconditionally..I am forgiven....Just like Jesus. 

Well, now that I am a parent and my kids are adults, I love to remind them of this realization that I came to know. They will become their parents. They may want to live in denial like I did, but I know all too well, they will realize that I was right! I hope I have given them great memories, like I have with my parents. They have something to look forward too with me and their dad. Because I am turning into my mother and he is turning into his dad. It is going to be a wild ride!

Proverbs 22:6 "Train up a child in the way he should go, And even when he is old he will not depart from it."

Love to all, 

The ring

It doesn't look like much. But it means alot to me. Please ignore my aging hand and wrinkly skin! I was gifted this from my memaw before she passed away. The diamonds are small, and it may not be a design that others may choose, but whenever I see this or wear it, I am reminded of my memaw and all the love she gave me. She didn't have to give it to me, but she did. Well, let me correct this. My mother gave me one of the rings and my aunt had the other. When my aunt saw that I had one of them, she said to me, "you may as well have this one to keep the set together". I am forever grateful to my aunt and mom for giving me this token of love from my memaw. 

Today, I picked this ring up from the jewlers. I got it sized and soldered to keep the rings together. He took care to inspect and clean them too. They are perfect (just like me haha). As I was driving home, a flood of memories came to my mind of her and all the time we had spent together over my life time. I will cherish those times.

Funny how this one came to my mind first. I must be needing a scolding or something! One time, I back talked her and she yanked me up, took me outside and took a switch off the tree and smacked me with it! I didn't know what happened. She did it so fast. I never crossed her again!

She would always have hugs for me and cookies when I came to visit, because papaw didn't like to share his ice cream! And oh the deep conversations we would have when I was a teenager. Things that are so important to a teen but looking back where nothing, but she made me feel so loved. Never looked down or told me that my feelings were not important. 

Make memories, one day at a time. Love on each other. Today, is a day I will make more memories with my family. We are going to Hubers Orchard! I love that place, great food and they have a winery! And you all know I like their wine. (Strawberry to be exact in case you are looking for a great Christmas gift for me!). I have both my kids together right now and feel so much joy...complete. So I will soak it up. 

John 13:34-35: "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." 

Love to all, 

Overflowing Joy

 I have a feeling of overflowing joy! My family is together for the next 2 weeks. My baby girl has come home to visit and I have both my kids together. It has been 6 months since I have been able to give her a hug and love on her! My son lives close and I am able to see him more, but when I have everyone close to me, it fills my heart. And yes, my kids are in their late 20's but they are still my babies! All the mommas out there know what I am talking about. 

During my morning devotional recently, I heard something that stuck with me from Joyce Meyer that I want to share. She said that everyone has the same amount of commodity of time. We all think that we are going to have enough time and keep procrastinating and putting things off. We get busy and think we don't have enough time to do everything we need to do. BUT, she goes on to say, that God gave us enough time. He gave us 24 hrs in a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. It is up to us to balance our time and use it wisely. 

We decide what we are going to use our time for. What we are going to waste it on. Joyce Meyers taught me that time is a commodity, like money. What we spend it on, like money, we can't get it back. It is spent. So when you spend your time, spend it on what you find important. 

Example: I have been working on my spending and my budget. I have been trying (and I mean it is really hard!) to stay away from amazon. I think I have traded going to target and walmart to online amazon. But I have learned, put it in your cart then sign out. When you go back look at your cart and see if you really want or (erm...need it??). I find that when I go back and look at my basket I am saying to myself..WHAT WERE YOU THINKING PUTTING THAT IN YOUR CART? What I did last week, maybe you can relate! I saw some really pretty dresses, that were not very expensive and put a few in my cart. I went back a few days later and thought, why did I put that in my cart? I don't wear dresses!! And I have worn them in years. I wasn't going to start now!

What I need to work on is my screen time. (again maybe I am speaking to someone with the same problem as me!) My time that I am on my phone and computer. I am working on it and getting that under control. Let's take it once step at a time. But I am taking tips from my dad, and reaching out to family and friends to talk at least once a week and connect. I think it is so important to keep those connections. Just a quick text works, but a phone call is better to hear each others voice! and a visit is even better because you can see each other and even hug!

I am loving my family being together again and we have a lot of plans over the next few weeks. I am looking forward to the time I get to spend with my kids and being together as a family once again in one place! Enjoy the love, the sunshine, (or rain depending on where you live) and time you have left in this earthly body. 

Ecclesiastes 3:2 states, "To everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die". 

Love to all, 

The not so quiet

 

Have you ever been sitting in the quiet and it just feels so loud? You can be out in nature, caught up in all the wonder and beauty but not be present.  Sometimes for me, my mind is so loud that I can't see or concentrate on what is right in front of me. I am just thinking about what I need to do or what I could have done differently. It's like this waterfall. It is so peaceful but it is also loud. And when I was there visiting it, there was so many people there that it was hard to hear the quiet peace of the waterfall. 

Life can sometimes be so loud and get so busy sometimes that you just let it go past you and you miss out on so much. For example, over the last few months I have been in a "honeymoon" phase of changing job roles. And don't get me wrong, I love my job and the freedom it has given me. But I am so caught up in the fear of "when is the ball going to drop" on my honeymoon. Or you can be so busy with being on the computer or watching tv that you miss out on life, miss out on the people in your life. 

I know what I have to do, GET OUT OF MY HEAD....MY MIND...OUT OF MY THOUGHTS.  Stop looking at the what if's and concentrate on the present. What I have been doing is taking Riley out for a walk every day, or should I say, she walks me! I have been able to enjoy the sun, the breeze (when it is there!) and get my steps in too, a plus for me! But what it also gives me is time to do is to look around, listen to the leaves, the wind, to get out of my head and have those personal conversations with myself. It gives me time to reflect, or to listen to music. My neighbors must think I am a crazy girl but who cares, right? Sometimes I just hum a tune of a favorite song, and when I am really into it, I just sing it on our walk. You can worship anywhere, anytime. Riley is use to it, but I don't think my neighbors are, haha. 

When you are feeling that life is too loud, just step back, go for a walk, and look around.  Don't worry what other people think, do what puts joy in your heart. Put a smile on your face, that always helps too. And if you need help to find your smile, let Riley help you out. She is so happy on our walks which brings such joy to me, only after I catch my breath from our speed walk. 

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1    The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.

2    He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

3    he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.

4    Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me;

     your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

5   You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil;

     my cup overflows.

6   Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of         the Lord forever.

Love to all, 

Being a nurse; a perspective from a nurse

 I never thought I would be a nurse. Let alone be a nurse for 33 years! I had a high school counselor tell me in high school that I should be nurse. So what does a typical teenager do? Yep, do the opposite. So I went to college to pursue physical therapy instead. But after  4 1/2 years, nothing! I couldn't get accepted into PT school. So one day I decided that since nursing offers so much more, I decided to apply to nursing school and got in! 

                                           ONE OF THE BEST DECISIONS I HAVE MADE.

You see, I love being a nurse. It just took a while to understand what nursing was really about. When you first graduate, it's like all about the paycheck. But you learn that you can do so much. I started out in the ICU in a general medical ICU. I learned so much that I went into cardiac nursing. Cardiac rehab, open heart recovery, coronary care. Then went into neuro nursing. Along the way I went into management from the bedside. Again I learned a lot. Now I am in a new part of nursing, care management, which is great too!

I have been seeing a lot of posts on facebook that puts the nursing profession and nurses in a bad spotlight. I have worked and still do, with some amazing people. Nursing is hard...NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEARTS!  I have been pooped on, peed on, puked on. I have gagged some because I cannot do snot! sorry. I have been hit, kicked, spit on. We see a lot and have a lot of stress. Especially going through Covid, that was hard. But I have also experienced families praying over me and blessing, a wife of a patient giving me a hug of thanks, families bringing in lunch because they know we are too busy to go get food. Letters and notes of kindness and appreciation. 

It is the hardest 3 shifts/ 36 hrs a week that anyone can do. I remember as a new nurse on night shift many moons ago, we use to bring books and magazines to read because we had down time. We would get a 30 minute lunch break. NOT ANY MORE! Every minute of a shift is filled with tasks, charting, med passes, and just keeping our patients stable and alive. Sometimes we don't get to sit down, just only when we are charting. And if you are lucky you get a potty break! Then we hand them off to the next shift and come back and do it all over again!

What I learned as a nurse that we GET TO DO is:

• Be our patient's person when they do not have family
• Hold someone's hand in a time of need
• Bring joy in time of grief
• Bring comfort in pain
• Bring calm in confusion
• Bring smiles and laughter to a stressful time
• Bring a kind word to a family struggling with difficult decisions
• Saving lives

But this doesn't only apply to our patients...we are supportive of each other too. Giving a fellow nurse a hug, a shoulder to cry when there has been a code. Helping each other with difficult patients that do not understand how their words hurt. Going out for breakfast after your shift for mimosas, just because. I have worked with some of the toughest people but some of the kindest and loving people too.

I have used my knowledge and talents for medical missions and giving advice to family. I have also been a patient too, as a cancer patient and my nurse was such a support to me. 

I have experienced so much over the last 33 years and I know I have more to come. The nursing profession is so rewarding. We give so much of ourselves but in return we see the lives we saved. One example is a patient I had, she had a heart attack, had surgery and we thought she was not going to make it. She was in the ICU for 3 months and she coded so many times and kept coming back, she was our miracle. I have you know that she survived, was discharged to rehab, then to home and came back to see us on the unit. Walked on the unit. It was amazing! And I was part of that care to help her recover and go home to her family. 

So if you are thinking of nursing as a profession, DO IT! You will not regret it. Shadow a nurse for a few hours in different areas to find your place. Not everyone is ICU nurses, just like not everyone (like me) is a pediatric nurse. Never underestimate what being is nurse is. Carry your RN, LPN, APRN title proudly. 

Matthew 25:40; "Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me." 

Love to all, 

 

The reason...the result

                                                                           2012

Today

        

I started this blog in 2012 because I found it a means to get my story and updates out to family, friends and anyone that was going through breast cancer. What I didn't expect is what this has done for me. You see, this all started on this day, June 1st, in 2012. That is 13 years ago, today, that I was told that I had breast cancer and the start of my journey of treatment, heartache, struggles and then being a SURVIVOR! 13 YEARS. WOW. The fear of it returning is real, and always on my mind, but my faith in God, He keeps me straight. If that is the plan for me to have this struggle again, I'm not gonna lie, it will be heartbreaking, but I know my God has a bigger plan. But God, I am saying, I don't want it again!

He has used my story in so many ways, in opportunities for me to share my story of faith with others. It has opened doors. I have shared with the women ministries on my mission trips, with women's groups in churches and with my patients. Now, do I wish I had another way to open doors than have cancer be a part of my life, well, you betcha! But this is my story, and my story isn't over yet. 

But through it all, these struggles have made me stronger. And I hope my journey has helped others as well. What I didn't expect is that my blog is being read ALL OVER THE WORLD! I really didn't pay attention to the "stats" section in my administrator part of my blog. I guess being that I am the administrator, I should pay attention to this section more. Well,  I started to look at that, I found that people in other parts of the world, not just here, are looking at my blog. I hope they are reading it and not finding it too boring! I pray it is helping others, but isn't this so exciting!! 
People from Ireland, UK, Sweden, Israel, Singapore, Mexico, Germany are a few of the countries listed. I would have never imagined that my words would be used to help others like this. Now there isn't a lot of views, but that's ok. I am planting the seed of courage, confidence and I hope others will gain that in themselves.  

While I am not in the battle of cancer, I, as I am sure others, are in the battle of the mind. Anytime you experience a traumatic season in your life, it will follow you and your mind is your biggest enemy. My mind tells me a lot, every day. I sometimes talk to myself, and others will look at me like I am crazy. Well, I may be, but it is my crazy. My way to keep me positive and keep the joy in my life. So no, it isn't early dementia, even though that may be in my future, but I will tell you, IT ISN'T NOW!  So if you see me rocking it out in my car while driving, or singing while walking my dog, or just being a little quirky, it is good to let loose and experience joy and show that happiness! EXPRESS YOURSELF!    

I will never forget my experience with cancer, how it made me feel and the struggle to stay positive. What I learned was God was with me, always. He carried me and I trusted that. I put a smile on my face each day and that helped with my mind. I praised and thanked God for each day and giving me another one.

I hope my words and my everyday life experiences brings joy to someone. Even if it is just one, I know I have made a difference. 

Romans 5:3-4; "Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope."

Love to all,

Family time!

 

The pond, and I think my dad would say that I am a big "dill"!!

The "outhouse"

One of the cat fish we caught

So much fun this weekend! I spent the day with my parents. How many of you can say that you now make plans with your parents instead of being dragged around to family events by your parents?? I remember a time when I was young that I "had to go" and was being "made to go" to family stuff and other things. But now, looking back, I am glad I was there to experience them and look for opportunities to have more! Mom would be the one taking the pictures. I can remember us kids saying, not again! EVen now, she still does, and you can see her holding up her i-pad taking those pictures! Now I take so many pictures because I cherish those memories. I take so many I have to go through them to delete some, there are so many!

This weekend I went to the farm with my momma and daddy. (yes I am 57 yr old and they are still my momma and daddy!). It definitely was a long drive there, but worth it for the memories made. Taking a ride on the side-by-side back around the property to see all the trails, field and trees, to using the outhouse, to fishing on the pond! And the fish were hungry cause we got a whole mess of bluegill and catfish! And the weather was amazing.We couldn't have asked for a better day!

Have you ever felt that when you are with your parents or grandparents, you feel like a kid once again? I feel that way whenever I am with my parents. And there is nothing wrong with that. I know that my kids probably feel the same when they are with me. And now that I am a parent of adult kids, I know how my parents feel. It is hard to let go of wanting to love on and care for your kids like you did when they were young. At the pond fishing, dad helped me with baiting my hook with the worms and taking the fish off the hook after I caught them. It was great, just like when I was young. It is hard to adult sometimes and it feels good when you have your daddy to help, even if it is just a worm or fish. (not to say that I couldn't bait my hook with the slimy worms or take my own scaly fish off my hook! hmm)

I also took a lot of short videos. Technology has made it so easy to save memories. I am into taking these short videos of people and some conversations. It is a reminder of their voice, what they sound like, and even if the conversation isn't important, it shows that personality that you would want to see over again. 

Whoever your family is, make time for them. It can be your neighbor, a friend, a co-worker, or a distance relative. Whoever it is, make those memories. Be intentional with your time that you have with them and your words. 

Proverbs 22:6: "Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it." 

Malachi 4:6: "And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers"

Love to all,

You are my sunshine!

WOW! It is so good to feel the warmth of the sun! The seasons are changing and now the sun is shining and we are all able to get out and enjoy it.  It brings a smile to face and joy to my heart to see all the flowers and the colors popping out this season. My flowers I planted last week, well, I can say they are still alive, but one of them looks like they are hanging on to dear life. I never really had a green thumb, and it isn't from lack of trying! I just don't think plants like me...LOL

As  you can see, my hair is still growing...I have not given up on the curls! and OH the gray! It really is showing. I think I am way too young for gray, I may have to look into some of that box color stuff! haha

I am so excited to get started on our house build. This is a view from what will be our back porch! I love it and can't wait for our new home and new beginnings to start!

I am looking forward to be out of the city. It won't be quite country life, but close. All the stress of having to be so aggressive when driving, rude people, and the traffic, I am ready to get out of this and to a much more quieter life. Crickets, trees, listening to wind, being able to hear my own thoughts. Ahh , sounds good, right?

I'm not sure what my dog, Riley is going to think of it. That big backyard to run around and chase the rabbits and other critters! I am sure she will be happy to move away from Lulu, our dog next door who is always trying to get her attention with barking! We had a hole in the fence where Riley and Lulu could see each other through it, but we had to close it because it was beginning to be too much barking at each other. I don't think Riley really likes Lulu that much.

All of this to say, even with change, I (we) still survive. Sometimes it is hard, but taking the time to look around, experience life, no matter how small, reminds you that you are still alive. Even if it is dogs barking, colors of the trees or flowers, or just enjoying the warmth of the sun, we are alive!

Psalm 118:24:

"This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." 

Romans 15:13:

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

Love to all, 

Happy Mother's Day

 

Happy Mother's day to you all. Just think about this....If it wasn't for your mom, you wouldn't be here!!

This day is always a reminder to me of where I was and where I am today. What I have done as a parent before and after my kids. Today is a happy day for me. 

We all have mothered one way or another. Some have been blessed with children of their own and I am happy that you have them. Some are aunts and I have some aunts that are just like a mom to me. Some are in that struggle of wanting children but has not been blessed yet. Before I became a mom of little humans, I was a dog mom. And I wore that title and continue to wear it proudly.

Children, they truly are a blessing. I have 2 children and for me to get them, well it took us down a long road of infertility ups and downs to have them. This mother's day can be a hard one for those wanting to make a family, have children but not being able to. I understand. When we were trying to figure out what was happening, and the why we couldn't, it seemed everyone around me were having babies. That is all I wanted and it consumed me. It was like I was being punished. I had always thought I would be a mom and the thought of never have children never crossed my mind. Then infertility struck. It was a huge blow to me. It took me down that road of discouragement.  Feeling I was not who I had planned myself or my life to be. 

It took me a while to figure out that this didn't define me. I could be a mom to a child whether or not they came from me. A mom is someone that is there for their children, whether the are biological or adopted. We discussed our options, decided that we would try IVF and if it didn't work, then we would look at adoption. We did IVF and were blessed. 

My prayer is that if you are going through this infertility journey, please don't let it discourage you. It is a hard road to travel. And I pray you find strength within yourself on this journey. 

For me, I was blessed to have my prayers answered and even more blessed with 2 beautiful children. The journey, many prayers and times on my knees, I would do it all over again. 

I love being a mom. It has had it's hard times. And I know I have failed at it at times. But I am only human, and I have never been a mom before. So throughout my childrens 28 years of life, we are doing this thing together. Me and my husband struggle at times, but our parents have led by example what good parents are supposed to be. I thank them for that example and to show us what we should and should not do. 

So, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU ALL! This is your dad and just know that you are appreciated for all that you do.

Psalm 34:18 states "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." 

Love to all, 

Evansville Serve Tour!

 

Evansville did not disappoint! It was wonderful. The serve tour was represented by 41 churches, we had 14 projects. I had such so much fun and found muscles that I forgot I had.

Day one was at the playground at an elementary school. The project assigned for me was to mark out a hopscotch, 2 square and 4 square games then paint it on the walk.  I did not know anything about 2 square or 4 square.  Thank goodness for you tube! I had to watch it to see exactly what we needed to do.

So we started with the one we knew, hopscotch.  We had to measure out, tape it out, then paint it. It wasn't until toward the end, like on block 8, that we were given a framing square. That helped so much more than the tape measure! After we got it done, of course I had to test it out. I had to see if it worked.  Well I am glad to tell you that the hopscotch worked.

We moved onto the 2 and 4 square and we got them done before the rain.  Well we thought the rain was coming, but guess what! It never came, on either of the days. God answered prayers and he held it back until Sunday so we could get all of our projects completed.  Everything was painted, bushes cut back, wood chips raked and fluffed. And this was the first day and it was good.

Day two.  It was a little different. We worked one of the block parties and it was cold! No sun but again the rain held off! We had carnival games, a magician, cotton candy, hot dogs and popcorn and an inflatable obstacle course! So you ask, did you do the obstacle course? Do you even need to ask?  Of course I did! and the 4 yo that raced against me, well, lets just say I didn't win any awards! haha. I think I would have won if I didn't get stuck trying to get over the wall! Took me a few times. 

A few things I learned this weekend: 

1. Don't be afraid to have fun and be silly

2. Always Trust in God, he will answer prayers

3. It is a small world. Found out the team I was helping with the hot dogs is the church my cousin goes to in Illinois! So watch out, you never know who is watching you!

4. God works through even ordinary people like me. We saw God work this weekend through all our serve projects. I met some great people and I look forward to the next trip.

It was a short weekend with big things done. We made a difference with so many people and kids. I am glad to be part of this small plan in this moment of time.

1 John 4:7

"Beloved, let us love one another, because love is from God; everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, for God is love. God's love was revealed among us in this way: God sent his only Son into the world so that we might live through him."

Love to all,

Go serve

 

Today's the day. Our travel day to GO SERVE the community in Evansville, IN with Send Relief.  I am so excited for all the work we will be doing to help that community. And to also witness to them and show the love of Jesus. 

I am packed, got my work gloves and work shoes and ready to GOOOOOO! Me and my friend B will be working for 2 days. Our first day is to replace, repaint and renew an elementary school playground. When we finish, maybe the paint will be dry enough for us to test out the playground. You know....make sure that it is safe for the little ones (wink, wink)

The second day will be working with a local church to connect and serve the community around the church. We will be having a BLOCK PARTY!! This is going to be great! We will be setting up and cleaning up afterwards but also serving food, help with games and show the love of Christ. And there will be inflatable bouncy thingy's!! You know if I can get into them, I WILL! I think I will blend in with the kiddos. I don't look a day over........

I do not know what God has in store for me or my friend B, but I know that it will be something extraordinary! God doesn't do small. Things may look small, but it will always turn into something BIG! I just go when HE tells me and do what his plan is and see God work. It is pretty amazing to watch and be a part of the plan. 

Please pray that through our small acts of works, God will show up with something more bigger, something that only HE can do!

Oh and update on the hair....I am still in the game. It's growing and the curls are OUT OF CONTROL! (haha) 

I leave you with the promises from God today. Have a blessed and safe weekend. 

Mark 10:45: "For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many."

Isaiah 6:8: Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”

Love to all, 

Be Silly

 

Have you ever done something and you just don't care what other people think? Like just acting silly? Just letting it all out and being happy.

Well, that is what happened on Easter! I just let it all out. No reservation and just had fun. My family gets together every year to remember Jesus' sacrifice and our salvation. We have an awesome dinner and fellowship, but then after that, let the games begin. We have, not one, BUT 2 egg hunts. One for the kids and one for us adults! Well, it seems all our little youngin's are all grown up and we only had 2 for our kiddo egg hunt. So some of us got together with our inflatable costumes and came out to surprise everyone for a little different hunt! I was the swan, and we had a leprechaun, dinosaur and a chicken. It was awesome! It is hard to move around and pick up eggs off the ground in those things!

I haven't had so much fun in a really long time where I just get out there, do something crazy and not really think about what others think about what I am doing! Being present and participating. Just letting my hair down (I can do that now that it is growing out! haha). 

Sometimes do you feel we get so caught up in life that we do not stop and laugh. To smell the roses. To just have fun. Smile. And did I say laugh? Life is not always so serious. Life can be fun and you can be happy. You just need to find your happiness and what that looks like for you. 

        

A HAPPY HEART IS GOOD MEDICINE

Proverbs 17:22: "A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."

Psalm 37:4: "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart".

Love to all, 

Our Promise

 

We have a Promise. We have been given much. Sometimes it doesn't feel that way. We can't hold it, touch it or see it. And this gift given to us was from many years ago. It has been freely given and handed down to us as God's people, his child. 

Today is Easter. We celebrate that gift today. Not the easter bunny, but Christ. His sacrifice for us, for me. We are not worthy of this, but he loves us so much that he did this for us, those in his present time and those of us to come later. He loves us even though we are sinners. Romans 5:8 says, "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." John 3:16 states, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." 

HE overcame death so we can have life, life eternal with him. Trust in him. Live a life for him. With Jesus, we can overcome anything. 

So while you are out today, celebrating with family and friends, hunting down those easter eggs (like me!) and putting on your easter clothes (not me, just jeans!), remember what today is really about....Our saviour and the greatest gift of all...forgiveness and love. 

John 16:33 says: "I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But be courageous; I have overcome the world."

Love to all, 

Trust the process

 

I went to the beauty salon, hairdresser, whatever you all call it and got my hair cut. It's been a while since I have always had my hubs cut my hair. Yes you heard me! But I am needing some professional work since I am trying to grow it out. And anyways, my  hubs is telling me he is retiring from his cutting hair gig! So I guess you can say I was forced to find a new hairdresser. 

I was really nervous because I think I got a girl that is new at this. She was very shy, didn't say much and seemed to be working on her confidence level. Which made me more nervous. But I kept telling myself to TRUST THE PROCESS. 

As she was cutting my hair, I was certain she really was struggling with what I asked. I only asked her to even it out, trim the ends. I showed her a before picture of where my hair was at and then a picture of what I was working toward. Again, I was telling myself, TRUST THE PROCESS!

It only took her 15 minutes and I swear it felt like she didn't cut much of anything.  I'm not judging, but I was just a little uneasy since I did pay $60 for this hair trim. 

But today....I feel like my hair responded pretty good! It is still in that "in the middle" phase and will probably be there for a while, but she did a pretty good job. I have no complaints. I guess she DID know what she was doing! haha

Sometimes, do you ever feel like you are in those situations. Times when you are unsure and you keep hearing that little voice say "trust the process".  It is hard to trust something that you do not have full confidence in or something you cannot see. We all want to have those assurances that whatever it is, it will turn out the way we want. BUT, as you know, it doesn't always work that way. Sometimes you have to face disappointment. Sometimes you have to wait until what you are wanting happens at that right time. Like that job promotion, or getting a raise or starting a family, getting married and the list can go on. Everyone has those moments in time. 

Whatever you are working towards, stay strong and courageous. God is with you through all the ups and downs in life. He will walk with you, carry you and hold you in all the good and bad times. There were many times that I had wanted something so bad and God told me no.  I was so upset and even yelled at God! He can take it and he understands our frustrations. God knows our hearts and thoughts. He carried me through some disappointments in my life. But looking back, I am glad God said no at those times, because I was not ready for that yes at that time I was seeking it. Trust in HIS process! Trust in HIS timing. 

Joshua 1:9: "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." 

Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

Love to all,

Doing it again!

 

Welp, I am trying it again. Yep, growing out my hair. I seem to get to a certain point and say, "I give up, I'm cutting it" and then I go back to short. But I am determined to get to my goal...just don't know what that goal length is. I guess I will know it when I get to it.

I just need to get an in between cut/trim. The problem is that the hubs has been cutting my hair and now I need to go and trust someone else to do it.  And that means I have to tell them what I want and how I want it cut. I DON'T KNOW!! That is probably why I keep going back to short hair....something that I know, the familiar.  And I know what you are saying, you let your husband cut your hair?. Yes I do. He isn't a barber, he just watched some videos on You Tube and does a really good job! You can learn a lot from You tube! LOL.

Bed head is another problem with thick,curly hair! Gotta love the curls!

With anything in life, there is going to trials. Me and growing out my hair and managing the morning bed head curls.  Or it maybe something else..something more challenging. We all have them.  Challenges, trials, But we get up every day, put our feet on the floor and move. That takes a strength that we sometimes take for granted. It takes courage. I am thankful that I wake up everyday, with breath in my lungs. That I have the courage to get up and live.

This week, Kentucky is facing many challenges with flooding and severe weather. A lot of people have lost so much... some have lost their life, some have lost their home.  I have family that have experienced some flooding, but have been lucky. If you are a praying person, please life up in prayer the families in KY and pray for courage to face the trials ahead of them. 

No matter what you are facing, going through or have walked through, God is with you. I pray for everyone reading this, that you have peace and strength to get through the challenges that life throws at you. You are strong!!

Joshua 1:9 Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go" 

Psalm 46:1-3: "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, and the mountains quake with their surging." 

Philippians 4:13: "I can do all this through him who gives me strength." 

And my favorite, go to verse when I need to be reminded:

Isaiah 40:29-31: "He gives power to the weary, and to those who are without strength he increases might. Even the young men will faint and be weary, and the young women will stumble and fall; but those who wait for the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint." 

Love to all, 

No worries...Happy

No worry...just happy.  I am so happy. Have you ever been so happy, full of sunshine that you just can't hold it in? I feel things are looking up.  

We are getting ready for pickle season!! If you are local to me, I am taking orders. I do not ship them. But I hear they are the best ever!! All the money I make goes toward my mission trips. I am looking at my missions and starting anew. As of now, I am not traveling internationally, but looking at missions locally. My first trip is with Send Relief to Evansville In. I am excited to work with them and the local churches. We will be ministering to the local neighborhoods. The team that I will be assisting is working on a playground and helping host a block party for the kids and people in the neighborhood.  I am so excited!! Will I get back into medical missions, probably. Just not sure when. I do feel that I have a gift for medical, just need a break from it. So much is needed here right in my backyard that I want to be a part of. 

Now that the weather is SOOOO much better, Riley is getting a lot of walks in. And she needs it. She has gotten a little heavy over the winter! There are so many dogs in our neighborhood, that she can get all the free smells every day! I think it makes the exercise she is doing more worth it to her. 

We got the plans for our new house and fingers crossed, we will start breaking ground in a month. I am so excited about the new step and journey we are going. Lots of changes and lots of new things, but all worth it in this thing called life! 

God's got this and I give it to him everyday. All my anxiety, worries and needs and he will provide....on his time. And it is replaced with happiness, contentment, love. 

Ecclesiastes 3:12: "I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live; "  

Love to all, 

Reset

Time to reset. I don't know what to do. I drive past the hospital where I have worked for the last 15 years, see a helicopter take off and remember those days. Wait! It has only been 2 days! Man, I didn't realize how hard it is to start over. To leave people I have worked with for a long time. How there is a missing piece in my heart right now. I know it will get better and I will have new experiences. And don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to those! 

BUT....just saying. I am not sure what to do. I am used to having 50+emails a day and now I am not getting anything, maybe 2 today! Not complaining about it, just not sure what to do with that. Trying to separate from my phone because my job had me connected to it. It is just so WEIRD. 

As I sit here typing, I can't help but smile. I am listening to my music, watching my dog Riley "GUARDING" the house from the mail-person.  Life is Good. Peace. That is something I have not felt in a long time and you know what? It feels good. 

I am thankful for all the wonderful times with my work family over the years. Am I going to miss them...heck yeah. But I am happy. I still worry about what I was in charge of each day, because we (our unit) worked so hard to get where we are at. I just want that to continue. And I life this up to God in prayer for each and every person I worked with and for the unit. I have to let go. 

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18: "Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 

Love to all,

that guilt feeling

 

Sometimes, your mountain seems so big that you do not know how to get over or around it. Right? And you try to do things yourself only to find that your way isn't the right way. God always has a plan, he just doesn't let us in on it! We only know the ending but not when that ending is going to come. What a sense of humor our God has. I can just imagine him sitting there watching me every day and thinking "what is she going to do today?" 

Sorry to be a downer today! It's just been a really hard last 6 months and I feel I have climbed over this mountain to the other side...FINALLY! 

When I look back on my life.. of ahem... 57 years, I have experienced so much and have had a lot trials and tribulations. But I have also has so much more goodness, and happiness. And throughout all those trials, God has held me, and led me. I just had to give up the control.

Sometimes we just stay with our mountains, trying to keep the control! Until you just don't have anything else to give. And that is when you realize it is time to hand it over to God. That's what I had to do. I had to stop trying to manage it all....my life, work, family and all the rest in between and just say "Jesus take the wheel"! Once I did that, so much relief flooded my soul.  I am happy, smiling, and soon to be enjoying life more.

It just took me a while to see this. You see, for me, it was my work. I have been a nurse for so long. I moved up to management and love it. But I let my job overtake me. I let it consume me. So much that I was neglecting myself and my family. No job should come above God or family. It just took a while to figure out that I can't do this alone and needed help.

So with that, me and my hubs decided it was time for me to step down. I can't tell you how hard that was but how relieved I was at the same time. And the enemy knows this. The enemy is playing on this and now giving me those feelings of guilt. Those feelings of "maybe this was a big mistake", "maybe I made the wrong decision". Have you ever felt that way? I know this isn't the first time and probably won't be the last.

But when I made that decision and my kids are telling me that it's about time, I know that I have failed them and myself. It is time to go forward. Put it behind me and make new memories. 

Proverbs 3:5-6; "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."

Psalm 16:11; "You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand."

1 Peter 5:7; "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you"

Whenever you feel this way, look to God, lean on Jesus and talk with him, every day. Read his word and the promises he gives us. He will guide you and bring you joy. I can speak from experience. Without God, I would be nothing. 

Love to all, 

I'm back!

 

Well, I am back. Not that I have a lot of followers! But I am sure those who are wondering, where have you been?? 

A lot of things have been going on, one big thing is....we moved and that  has been a life changing experience! We are living back in the city and oh, baby, I can tell I have been away for a while. I miss the quiet, country life. 

The small town feel and friendliness of people. Traffic is cRaZy here! I have to learn to watch from all sides and just pick a lane and stay in it! Today, I was driving to the store and there was a guy that just kept honking his horn. I don't know if it was me or someone else, who knows. 

Our house is a lot different than I am use to. We are renting right now, because we are getting ready to start building a new house...in the country!  This house is temporary and ok but not what we would choose as our forever home. We took a Sunday drive out to the area where we will be living and how I do miss the back, country roads, no traffic and nobody in a stinkin hurry. Makes my heart happy that I have that to look forward too.  Now to figure out where we will do our shopping, because there is not any superstores and only a small family market for groceries! I may have to plant a garden!

And the biggest news of all, I am also changing jobs! I am moving into a position that will allow me to have more time with my family.  This is something that I have taken for granted and I need to concentrate on putting them first, not my job. So I am stepping down and I have never felt more happy about a decision. I am looking forward to this new part of life and getting to know my husband again. 

I know nothing about this new job, as I have never done it before, but I am so excited to learn and grow in a different direction. This is best part about being a nurse, you can do so much and in different areas. You can still help people in many different ways. I LOVE IT! 

    I got my orientation schedule the other day. So weird to get one because for so long I have been making and sending those out.  I can't stop smiling when I think about this new step in my life. 

God has answered so many prayers and has been so patient with me. Sometimes he has to keep giving me signs and putting things and people in my path for me to piece it all together to know what direction to go. I know and trust that he is guiding us and will provide for us and our needs. 

There is more life changing experiences coming my way and I am ready for them!

Psalm 16:11, “You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”

The Good News: Life is full of ups and downs — moments where we wonder if He has abandoned us. But with His guidance, we can find happiness.

Love to all,