New years always has us making resolutions and what we need to change. I am tired. I don't think I have it in me to do anything different. And whenever I make a resolution, I am doomed to not be successful with it. So I just don't make them! Today, as I was waiting to get my hair cut, I noticed that it has been exactly one year ago I was getting a haircut! How's that for chance. But my picture from last year to this year are so dramatically different.
Covid has taken so much from me, as I am sure it has you as well. Maybe not covid but just the pandemic. I have worked more due to staffing needs, patients that are more critical and have higher acuity needs, and my responsibilities have increased throughout all of this. But also, my stress level has increased. I worry about my family but with working more and worry, it can age you. Am I am SO tired. All the time. When I saw my pictures side by side, I was shocked. All I wanted to do was cry and say WTH!!!
So what did I do? Yup, I felt sorry for myself!! haha. but after my pity party, I started to think about a sermon I heard and realized it is time for a renewal! I always like to have a word for the year for me to work towards or to remind myself of what I need and I found it. RENEWAL. That is what this year is going to be about.
RENEWAL of my mind, my body, my spirit. RENEWAL of taking care of myself, less worry, loving others.
Paul teaches us in Romans 12;2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
So as I look at my pictures, I agree, yes I look like I have aged, yes I have gained some weight. BUT WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT IT? I have a lot of work ahead of me, but thank God I have him in my corner and I have a whole year to make good on this promise to myself!
Love to all,
